November is almost over and counting down the days

November is almost over and counting down the days. I can't believe it is almost Christmas again. I so hate the holidays. It seems like every year it is the same old thing. It starts with Cheyannes Birthday and ends after the first of the year. I do nothing but clean clean clean for parties and holidays. No one is ever happy with the holidays or what they get. I don't know why we keep celebrating them. I say we call the holidays stay home and stay in bed all day. I would love that holiday. Matt had a nice party took me 2 1/2 days to clean from the last one. Then Thanksgiving came still am trying to clean the mess from that one. That will take me straight throw till time to put the Christmas decorations up. Then it will take to New Years to clean. I am so tired of cleaning. I can't believe that it is really worth it. Expecially since I have to have the house clean for Friday before Christmas for the family coming over. And then again Christmas Day. Plus for Seths Birthday the day after. It just seems like not really worth it. It is one of the only reasons I wish the kids were older so I didn't have to celebrate holidays anymore.

Happy 18th Birthday Matthew

Today is Matts birthday. I can't believe how fast he has grown up. Makes me feel really old at times. It has gone by so quick. I remember when he was born as if it was yesterday. The whole 6lbs. 7ounces that he was. He seemed so small to me. Since he was my first born I had no idea what motherhood was. So with Matt everything was now to me as it was new to him. But he grew quickly and we learned together. He was a quick talker and still is today in a different way. But his quick talking made up for his slow walking. As the years went on he always has had a way to crack a joke and to make you laugh. He has not had the best first 18 years but he hasn't complain much. I know most of his comedy routine is because he's not always as out going with people and it is his way of breaking the ice. He has been with me though some of the hardest times of our life and I know it has made him stronger because he has. I wish him all the best in what ever he does from here out as an adult. And he knows that I am always here for him in what ever decissions he will make. I am just glad that he has found someone to share his life with. As his mom I have not at all looked forward to the day when he would become and adult to make up his own mind. When I look at him he is always that 2 year old kid who argued with me about coaches and transits. The kid that helped his brother make chocolate milk all over the kitchen and left me the mess. Or when he went to school in 3rd. Grade and told the teacher he found out the night before he was adopted and that is why he didn't get his homework done. But in turn he is also the same kid that watched his father leave, had to move a dozen times, have both of his parents get remarried and help carry his Grandmother to her grave. He has had to deal with a half brother, a half sister and step brother, and step sisters. But not one comment about I didn't want my family any bigger. Just the one that I don't have a good marriage record of keeping guys. But through it all I am sure he has had his own opnions. I just wanted you to know Matt that I Love You. You will always be my favorite Oldest Son. And some day that you will get to expierence the same joy you have given to me.

Anniversaries

First Happy Birthday to Butch! I can't forget Jess Happy Belated Birthday and also Cheyanne. The two of you make me feel so old so very old. I can't believe it has been 10 years today since Walter and I got married. I pick on him all the time that I am going to off him after our 10th for his Social Security. I hope he knows I am only fouling around with him. I Love him so Very Very Muchly. He has had to put up with all my crap and has done a good job. But that is part of love because I have put up some too. Some times I wish thinks had been different but that is life. I do have to thank him for stepping in and accepting me for what I am and for not taking judgement on how I raised my kids and ours. I know it is a lot for a person to walk into an already made family and he did it. Plus had to hear me grip when I want them to be just my kids. Well I will finish this later have to run like always.