I can't believe that January is already more than half way through

I can't believe that January is already more than half way through. Happy belated birthday to Asa and Billy. Billy turned 18. Well what is up with me. Roger has his surgery on Wednesday and I pray everything goes well for him. Asa is in North Carolina and I miss him even though he is still not that far away. I am scared to death to go see a surgeon on Wednesday for my biopsy. I just can't wait till it is over. I still don't know if the tumor has gotten bigger or if they just want to know. I just know I am sick of mammagrams and ultrasounds. They make me hurt every time I get them done. Seth has an interview on Tuesday and I hope he get the job. I know he will still have to pass the physical to get the job. But even if he thinks he won't pass it I believe he will. If I have been in a crappy mood to anyone lately I am sorry I am just nervous. Well till after I find out more.

I can't believe that it is going to be almost warm today

I can't believe this weather. I have been cold for so long and now for the next two or so days it is going to be warm. I have missed a lot of Birthdays as well as some Anniversaries. So if I missed you happy belated. I do want to mention Seth though. He turned 18 even if he didn't want to. I can't believe he is 18 it makes me feel old. I love him so. He is more like me. Stubborn that is what him and I are. I remember all the things he has done over the years. Sometimes it seems like he doesn't even like me but I know he does. He is like me don't like to show feeling. I have learned that if he says he broke his foot chances are he broke his foot. He is the first of my kids to stay in a hospital and scare the life out of me. He never held still as a child which was hard to get him to stay in bed in the oxygen tent at the hospital. I just wanted him to know that as his mom I am proud of him and I love him dearly.

Not much else has been going on. I got older that really sucks. My body aches most of the time. Especially when it is cold. My arm has lost most of its feeling. And it is getting harder to grab things with it. Always seems numb. My emphysema is having a field day with the weather. But I know if I just stop smoking. I have heard it. But I still haven't seen any thing that doesn't make me sick when I try to stop. Walter is doing about the same. They told him his legs are going to be like this for life. Some times worse some times better. Between the two of us we have more medicines. I just wish they would find cures instead. I hate taking medicine. I have to go for my mammagram next week. Lets hope this one is better than the two I had 6 months ago. I hate getting them done. But thats life. Matt has been working hard and so has Crystal. Mom is working on a new crypto book I got her. If any one sees any grab them they are getting hard to find. Well I have to go time to run again seems like all I do lately. Run run run.